I thought this would be interesting ,bit boring but who the hell cares this Is not that KCSE Math paper i stared at after i did what i thought i knew....at least i got a D+ THOUGH I TEND TO THINK SOMEONE SLEPT ON THE JOB....okay seriously here i am spending my precious lunch time putting up and together my thoughts on a subject(love life) which even renown psychologists world over are still trying to understand let alone figure out. Researchers pia bado hawajafika kuitoboa hii myth and may not in the next millions of years to come, when i should be in my usual spot sleeping or at least devouring some sort of novel even if its a MILLS AND BOON(Ooh yes i still read them). Anyway picture this Mina meets nice boy, nice boy likes her but what happens next Mina writes him off . He came across as boring, dressed too kawa, mummy's boy or too clingy, stingy even mean to himself, anaishi kwao yet he makes more than 180k, kuwa serious,...WALAI HII NI NINI!
Mina meets boy two, has a decent job, good age but lives in an SQ, talks too much about himself she axes these one too as too proud and bila ambition..Ambition eeh SERIOUSL! Hehe she does not even understand but still how do you date a dude hana kwake?
Then Mina meets boy three.Oooh... looks nice, stable job, dresses well, good company but he ngoas sana (azin extremely) and does not use any cologne so that horrid smell of sweat too much to vumilia- decision made PAP-No way! Hell no . Time for boy number4, everything is perfect, interesting but he is a little bit intimidating, quite mysterious even, oozing confidence and an obvious bad boy but guess what the heart is beating so fast in her chest and its singing loudly..."He is the one..ooh this is the one." She forgets to see how wrong on so many angles he is, many times he is such an ass. Seriously kwani ni how? She refuses to think or to see things as they really are, Does not want to understand this things in there true depictions, throws away caution to the wind, discards the check list she so painfully spent long hours on of what she wants in a man, in a relationship .
HEARD FROM SOMEONE THAT RELATIONSHIPS DO WORK, THOUGH YOU HAVE TO BE ENSLAVED TO PRAYER(no pun intended here). She tries often to make do, to look the other way and often she ends up laughing and pitying herself because all or most of the stuff she has gotten out of this are so superficial. She starts having self doubts... Well but he is so good looking, so handsome as it could be, And when she wrote a list it was all stuff to do with what he can do for her, remember those benefits you can get from a man only, yeah those ones, he is loaded,drive a good car not just any other car, own a hao, mambo ya kurent zii duu bilaz.. pathetic...that is way obvious now.
All this might might sound lame to you but honestly who still writes kind, loving, smiles a lot, handsome only in their ideal man check list? at least not me but it would be a plus if i got the nice things along with stability, security and a comfortable life....anyhow a lot of us women have amuad to live life like that, not so carefree but definitely not uptight or naive to reality. The heart may want what it wants but you cannot let its deception and vulnerability guide your whole life. Sometimes you got to get a hold of your emotions so that you can master the game of life. Do you have to tore the lines? Even if you do it does not guarantee a life without disappointments or hardship...that’s why we are human.. we keep breaking them rules because often than not living by the book sucks, and its usually fun breaking them
I think when other peoples’ suns are setting that when the sunrise for others will take place ...a little bit twisted huh? only to the closed-mind maybe, not me, ask anyone.We work best in the dark, meaning? sijui sana.. but we often give our all or our best in situations that seem so bleak. So who is your i deal man/woman? I believe she/he be at least human to start with, that i am so sure and certain of, not some alien specimen...Are you seriously reading this? taking it seriously? you jua there is days i thought maybe relationships aren’t my thing till i was in one and i was too good at it i started getting too comfy so i got scared and run...now I am back to square one where you start putting things like self belief in place. I honestly don’t know how dem things dem work...i find a way of coming up with my own ways...maybe they ain’t the norm ..or my thing at all but atleast it sort of helps me see how free my thoughts can get. Not good at it yet but NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE,
Before i didn’t take kindly to be ignored, but you know what, its part of life, you will in the very least learn something from it, its hard kidogo tho. I also felt the need to be reassured but shida ni mingi...watu wana shida mob sana hadi mine looks trivial, so f**k reassurance...just live life as it is, or if u need it reassure yourself period or even better call your mother, she is the only one who sees an angel in you...Kiss all that negativity and then i cant attitude goodbye and start living at least...there is someone out there in so much pain, someone suffering from a terminal disease and they know they aint got so much time. You have never believed in yourself? Then time is right to start doing that..i also at one point never believed in myself, it has taken me so long but i knew it starts with me for others to believe in you, realize what you are good at so that they may appreciate or at least realize you are actually good at something...so where had you buried those big dreams...?aah SASA its time to unearth them ! kisses y'all
